which is money problems, grrrr, just when I thought my money issues were on the up and up, my dad calls me and babbles about if I can take over some of my student loan payments that he's been paying on. Sure, thinks I, now that I'm about at a place where I don't have to worry about starving myself for lack of grocery money, I'll just take on some more payments and be right back there. Granted, my oh so gracious father did take out a loan for me my senior year of college which allowed me to finish school, and helped me out here and there, but I have to admit that I feel some selfish bitterness cause it wasn't a huge loan and it seems most people's parents are more than happy to help their children through college. However apparently after talking we realized he was talking about a loan that I've already been paying on that he's the cosigner for, so there is just some overdue payments to catch up on and it should be allright. Still, I have to shell out a little more money than I had planned on to get the loan current, grrrr. It will be fine, if I could just get a darn part time job, I'm starting to feel quite rejected here that no one will hire me, not even target. Then I feel like this dissapointment to my dad who was dissapointed that I went to a private school, dissapointed in my major, and disappointed with what I've been doing since I graduated and I feel that I just confirm his dissapointments. He is helping me get the loan caught up though, he's not as bad a guy as I make him out to be I just have pent up resentment, but he's allright, and he's going to continue to pay on the loan as long as I keep up with the other one.
On a happy note, at least I'm a successful cookie maker, I brought in some chocolate chip cookies that I made last night and have gotten rave reviews.
Only a couple people have commented on my haircut and color, apparently it wasn't as much of a change as I thought. That's okay, its really about seeing Matt and admiring his pectorals, amongst other things.
The rest of this week is filled with festivity, tonight all "the girls" will be reunited, and we will have a slumber party. The rest of the week is all fun leading up to Jenni's wedding friday night. Jenni being married is a little weird, I think she just wants to get laid. Just kidding Jenni!, I suppose she's in love too, and I'm happy for her.
I've been thinking lately about my high school crush that I was obsessed with throughout most of college. Every once in a while I get an urge to call him up, I don't know if I still have his correct phone number but perhaps I'll stalk him again. Not that I really stalked him before, just showed up randomly at his aparment at odd hours and once threw rocks at his window. That is perfectly normal behavior, along with being obsessed about someone for a good 4-5 years that you barely know.
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