what exactly is a hipster anyway?

Definition of a Hipster
Hipster - One who possesses tastes, social attitudes, and opinions deemed cool by the cool. (Note: it is no longer recommended that one use the term "cool"; a Hipster would instead say "deck.") The Hipster walks among the masses in daily life but is not a part of them and shuns or reduces to kitsch anything held dear by the mainstream. A Hipster ideally possesses no more than 2% body fat.

hippie: someone who rejects the established culture; advocates extreme liberalism in politics and lifestyle

those are a couple of definitions I found when I googled hipster. I was at the local shop (coffee that is) the other night, where I have been frequenting since its less than a block from my house. Anyways, it is always crowded with students and regulars, there was no table available so I had to sit at the counter with the regulars; the guy that looks like Busta Rhymes, who also frequents the Red Dragon, the guy that has red hair that works at the liquor store next door, the dude that is always playing chess, etc., etc.... who like to chat up the barista.

So I feel a little uncomfortable, the other three chairs are taken up with people who know eachother, who belong, and I'm just the random. I take my seat, I don't want the other's to see what I'm reading, especially the busta rhymes guy cuz I'm reading Maya Angelou, and maybe he'll think I'm some lame white chick trying to "get" black culture, though he seems nice, and the other folks there would just probably think I'm either lame or think about how they read that when they were five and started an anti racism program in kidnergarten or something. They were talking about some movie that I've never heard of, and some other related film that I had never heard of, and the barista threw out some jab at hipsters. Maybe I've had the wrong image of a hipster this whole time, but this guy looks to me like a hipster. He's got the skull cap, lives in Uptown, throws out the indie rock band names, dons the used clothing, works at the coffee shop AND the co-op. His (I assume) girlfriend who was sitting next to me is working on some film, was super cute and also clearly visits the vintage store, where the clothes are used but probably still cost as much or more than what you'd find in the mall. He had just gotten like 20 records for something like five bucks, you know, for sampling and shit.

I can only strive to be a hipster, I'm sooo not cool enough, I certainly am not cool enough to go beyond and become anti-hipster. It's like that Cake song, how do you afford your rock and roll lifestyle? I try to keep up with music, but without a computer and internet how am I supposed to download MP3's?? I can rarely afford to go to a show, or buy a new cd, I don't even have access to a cd burner really, of course no iPod. I don't often get invited to cool parties, meanwhile everyone in uptown seems to know eachother, I'm usually too shy to try to start up a conversation with an established group, and I don't watch enough independent film to have anything of interest to say even if I did. I shop at secondhand stores, but I'm fairly conservative in my dress, and if I try something a little more daring I usually just look sloppy and frumpy. My schtick is to try the aloof and mysterious angle, but I probably just look weird and timid. I don't know when these people have time or energy to be so cool (or should I say "deck") they seem to just sit at coffee shops or bars, or sit around home and smoke pot (or whatever else), which is what I do, well, minus the pot, and still I fall short.

Oh well, I don't want to be a part of your stinky old hipster crowd anyways, I've got enough of my own cynicism and depression to deal with, without hearing about yours.

Work is really pissing me off, now the IS people took away our online radio!!, its online radio for fuck sake, I don't understand why they gotta be like that, something that it uses up too much somthing or another to do with the computer. Now I have to get a radio with an antenna so I can get reception.

I would like to change my blog design, but I have no knowledge of html. Seeing as how it took me about 10 hours to figure out how to get a pic on this thing, I don't see myself getting too fancy. I want to post more pics too.

Tonight I'm going to an artist lecture by some fellow alum. I'm interested to see what kind of work other's have been doing since they graduated.